Remember to Look after Yourself.....

 Hello All, 

How are you? I pray I find you well and rested -if not, God bless, heal, strengthen and let you feel the love He has for you In Christ Lord Jesus' Mighty Name Amen!! 

**The laser burn my neighbours inflicted on my knee is healing nicely thank God but I've really had to sort out my feet and it got me thinking that in a time of 'temporary gang-stalking' we really have to try and look after ourselves. Of course its easier said than done.

Forgetting ourselves at the best of times never mind when we're dealing with life-threating terrorism in our homes and gang-stalking on the streets -is easy. Trying to steal some time to apply a face mask when toxic chemicals are drying out your skin, cracking your lips and hurting eyes is very difficult -no? 

Jumping in and out of the shower when your heart is racing through fear of ****** and not knowing if their weapon-of-choice and water mix or not --is not a walk in the park. The Blood of our Lord Jesus' has and continues to cover US but what to do when every day feels like a battle!! 

I thought I'd share some of what I now do to keep the machine that is my body going by God's incredible grace Amen..  Enjoy and add your own -thanks. 

Start the day with God the Father, God the Son our lord Jesus Christ and God our Lord Holy Spirit...

I know you already know but its important to confirm this for those who don't have a relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ!!  Gang-stalking is ultimately about the fight for our souls -thus its spiritual.. And this evil evil spiritual battle belongs to the Lord and can not be overcome without Him. 

"And he said, “Listen, all you of Judah and you inhabitants of Jerusalem, and you, King Jehoshaphat! Thus says the LORD to you: ‘Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God’s." Chronicles 20:5

Be kind to Yourself...

Be gentle with yourself. Remember to speak kindly to yourself. The devil and his children are already trying very hard to make you hate yourself -don't add to this heavy load!! 

“For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he." Proverbs-23:7

Are you calling yourself names? Are you quick to forgive yourself when you mess up or do you hold on to it and beat yourself up over and over again? Have you internalized every evil word spoken over your life or are you walking in God's healing grace? Remember: 

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits."Proverbs 18:21

So you can speak blessings over yourself or curses -its up to you. I started the journey of loving myself by God's grace around 20 years ago and its not easy. Losing your job or putting on weight or falling ill -can all set you back. And when you add gang-stalking -and they start shutting doors on you -its easy to start to believe the devil's report concerning yourself. 

Also, delays can truly mess with the mind!! Broken dreams and the trauma and limitations of years with very little money or options are brutal. But God!!!  The word of God says:

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." Proverbs 13:12

Thus, most of US are also dealing with, 'hope deferred' and the heartache that comes with it. You may be suffering from years of sabotage and shut doors. It could be years and years in the wilderness!! Or years of waiting and believing and trusting God to enter into your purpose; whatever it is --know that God is good and in control Amen! And even though its feels like its taking forever -wait for it.. 

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry." Habakkuk 2:3

Look back over your life and all the times our Lord and our God has come through for you -and know that He will do it AGAIN Amen!! 

Food glorious food....

It matters what we put into our body especially when its under attack!! Buy the healthiest, best food you can. I lost my job last September and as you can imagine -in this current economic climate, its not been easy!!!

I've had to by God's grace cut back -and cut back -and cut back again (I could go on forever -laughter) and ask for wisdom to navigate this new 'temporary space' Amen. This 'new normal' has meant at times -after paying my bills I had next to nothing to spend on food and toiletries. 

I no longer buy organic unless its been reduced. Or, I have to get up early and go to markets -buy loads of fruit and veg; wash and cut them up and store them in the freezer etc. I lost my fridge/freezer after Christmas -when it was sprayed with some sort of chemical that lead to me (and mine) poisoned and throwing up -I kid you not..  

Thus, this means shopping for food has become much more expensive but we move Amen. Pound shops, Lidl, Aldi, Superdrug etc are now a must -and they complement my shop at Sainsburys (and M&S / Waitrose for a few bits-and-bobs)!! 

One pot dishes have truly seen me through Amen!! Some olive oil, loads of onions, carrots, cabbage (thinly cut), loads of potatoes, skinless chicken legs, green olives and a sauce of your choice -lightly browned then put in the oven (covered with foil) -is all it takes. 

Cheaper then ordering take-away(take-out) -and much healthier than the highly processed ingredients used to make ready-made meals!! The dish doesn't take long to prep or cook, and takes only peeling/cutting the vegetables and lightly frying them all together with the chicken legs in the sauce of choice  for around twenty minutes then its straight to oven until the chicken falls of the bones -if you know what I mean!! 

Anyway take your time and do your due diligence to educate yourself about the best/healthiest food and vitamins for you (if your not already on the journey). 

I love and watch Dr Eric Berg on YouTube and I've learnt so much. His Anti-inflammatory, intermittent fasting and the one about EMFs (Electromagnetic Fields): Cell Phone Radiation Effects on Human Body -have been a blessing to me. I thank God for his life. I also love Eddie Abbew (he makes me belly laugh) and Dr Sten Ekberg -they're all lovely knowledgeable men who inspire and get you thinking about your health. 

I want to pivot and discuss the day I truly accepted (and understood) that Lord Holy Spirit was confirming the new woman at my doctors reception -was planted there to not just keep an eye on me (and others) but was able to access my medical records.  I found this revelations shocking -and it meant I had to go-up-higher and seek God concerning my health. 

During covid I put on some serious weight. I was also diagnosed with a fatty liver (I believe it was due to chemicals being pumped into my home but I had no idea) -and I had to do something. Thankfully I found out (via my doctor and Dr Eric Berg) that said condition is reversible Amen!! 

A healthy lifestyle doesn't happen over night but you can start by making some small small changes like buying olive oil instead off cheap mixed vegetable oil. I know olive oil can be expensive but -the up front cost for a litre bottle will last for some time. But if you're really cash strapped visit Aldi/Lidl -their own label are very reasonable. I buy mine from T'K Maxx (I know -they sell the best and their prices are really reasonable) and M&S and Waitrose. 

If like me you come from a people who eat a lot of rice -try swapping your white rice for brown rice!! 'Quick cooking brown basmati rice' is delicious. You can also add beans to your rice to help break down all the carbohydrate. It'll also fill you up for much longer Amen. Remember you can also use brown rice to make Jollof rice (do google for ingredients and how to make it). 

**Try swapping table salt for sea salt (its not that expensive). Cutting down or going sugar-free will transform your lfe. I'm using natural Stevia (from Stevia leaf extract) and its good. I'm still eating milk chocolate (life goes on laughter). 

I enjoy Boots' No Added Sugar Swiss Milk Chocolate with Hazelnuts (its now next to impossible to get your hands on them. They're always out of stock and will need their own waiting list soon. They do contain Lactitol, Aspartame*, Acesulfame K which is disappointing but its only a treat. . 

I mostly buy Sainsbury's No Added Sugar Milk Chocolate and even though they use Maltitol as sweetener (something Dr Eric Berg doesn't advice) I buy them because they are delicious. I buy Green & Black's Organic Fairtrade Cocoa powder for my hot chocolate -its a lovely quality and so reasonable. 

Also, remember to drink plenty of water, limiting your coffee kick and adding herbal tea is an idea if you need an alternative for fizzy drink/soda. Look into your gut health and add probiotics and kefir yogurt to your diet. Doing so has truly transformative my health. Your daily Vitamin C and Omega 3 fish oil are also important for your joints and all sorts -and for me 'Activated Charcoal' has been of great benefit. 

Please note, I'm not a doctor so do visit your health practitioner to discuss the best vitamins for you (unless you're getting all your nutrients from your food. Mind you -even then you'll still want to make sure you're not lacking in any vitamins).   

In the past I was taking pills for painful/heavy periods and God had me come off all of them and up my health game. I'm not suggesting you come off your meds -I'm not a doctor. I am only sharing what God had me do and I haven't looked back. And I now understand and believe I had to be at my very best/healthiest in body, mind and soul for such a time as this Amen!!

The Storehouse...

Buying in bulk if possible and checking out offers can also help. Just before covid I remember Lord Holy Spirit had me start stocking up on certain foods. I was lead to watch preppers on Youtube and to tell my family -so when the pandemic started me and mine were covered Amen! I was convicted again just before I lost my job -and now I'm getting it again. I'm not telling anyone to panic -our God does supply all our needs Amen but I feel we do our bit -and pray for guidance about what to buy with regards to food to pack away. 

I felt lead to buy rice. Also, because I love mackerel -I bought loads of it in olive oil. When I had my fridge/freezer as-and-when I came across reduced fresh fish/chicken etc -I would buy and freeze them  (meaning I was never short). 

I prefer daily fresh fruit and veg -but having dealt with the escalation and burnt knee -I'm now stocking up on some tin veg like sweetcorn, chickpeas, red kidney beans, butter beans and when I get another fridge/freezer -I'll be buying frozen fruits (and veg) to store away. 

I know some of you are fabulously making your own bread (I love the idea -I'm just not good at it) -I buy multigrain part-baked sourdough baguettes and freeze them. I buy and put away evaporated milk. I buy it for my coffee and use it when I run out of fresh milk for my porridge. 

Other things to maybe add to your storeroom are tin tuna, vinegar, sauerkraut, coffee, pasta, baked beans, pulses, water, condiments (including tomato ketchup, BBQ sauce and pepper sauce), Olive oil and  Merchant Gourmet Simply Cooked Glorious grains, their rice, lentils and quinoa source of protein range. I don't personally like tin soup but I know many do and M&S and Waitrose have a lovely range. Also jumbo rolled oats, seasoning, chai seeds, monkey nuts, healthy cereals (most cereals are full of sugar so we have to read the labels), Salt, honey, tea/loose tea, peanut butter, flour and sugar-free jams. Do let me know what else can be added -thanks. And remembering to make and stick to a shopping list; using your points (card) and vouchers are helpful.  

Intermittent fasting was a God send into my life (learned via Dr Eric Berg) and it helped me to reverse the fatty liver  Amen. I'm not suggesting everyone starts fasting but its worth looking into and seeking advice from your doctor. 

Exercise..... 

I've always loved walking and even though chemicals being pumped into my flat means -it has at times left me with serious inflammation and affected my walking (think vibrating floors, shocks, hits and chemicals that crush your body) -but I pushed through and feel the benefits of exercising Amen! 

Exercising doesn't have to be expensive!! Only you know the level you're at, thus if it means sitting on your favorite chair and gently moving your arms and legs; walking back and forth to your front door or up-the-stairs, or joining a local gym or pottering about in your garden -do it and get your heart pumping to the glory of God Amen. 

The Body Beautiful....

Earlier this year, just after a lovely Christmas with my family (I only see some of my people once a year -please read between the lines) -I was meet with the most demonic escalation from my neighbours. I remember the shock. It had me running up and down at night, sometime riding up-and-down on buses all over central London until 7am before going back home. 

I spent nights in A&E's -at least I was safe and with others!! There were times I was gripped with  a fear so big -a fear I've never felt before that I run to my daddy's and my big brothers home -merciful God and I learnt so much. 

I learnt I wanted to protect some members of my family and others - I learnt I had to stay away from them. It was so painful -merciful God. 

My body hurt, my heart was broken and for someone who's never really feels lonely (I think I've always been too busy with ideas laughter) -felt a bottomless type of loneliness that thankfully didn't last for too long Amen. 

Its left me changed forever. I''m glad God let me taste that loneliness -I've been truly humbled by it and understand when others say they are lonely now -it can be crippling. 

I also felt the muckiness of running around town at night. I started carrying what I called my 'kick-off bag'. It was stationed near my front door and had a change of t-shirt (just in case), my extra make-up bag, face-cream-come-hand-cream. A small washbag with toothpaste, toothbrush, small travel mouthwash, wash cloth, travel size body wash and chewing gum.  

It also had my extra charger, a big rolled up cashmere scarf (to cover myself with or use as a pillow, a sort of diary I documented what was happening to me/car registration numbers etc, a pair of socks, a couple of knickers, tissues, that evening's vitamins, my small bible, hand sanitiser and some food -can you believe it??

It wasn't until one of my nearest and dearest became so affected by my moving so helter-skelter that I started to allow our lord and our Saviour to heal me. Deliverance was and continues to be brutal at times. I am getting to know my God and myself more. I've been humbled by life and my mind's being renewed each and everyday. 

I am learning of God's POWER, LOVE, GOODNESS, GRACE and MERCY and its transforming me. I've had to go-up-higher and have faith I could never have imagined to navigate circumstances I didn't know existed. I've had moments when all I want to do is run or have someone just sit with me. 

I've cried through the night and woken up with a song in my heart. I've had Throne-room entering praise and worship where Lord Holy Spirit has touched me like never before and given me HOPE. I've been tired and weary and have had two nights where I asked God to take me (one with my mouth and heart and the other with only my heart -I was at the end of myself -and maybe that's what its all about). 

I now walk washed in the Blood of the lamb, knowing that I know that I know that apart from my God I can do nothing. I also know I would rather spend a million years in this captivity than a life of riches serving the devil -and satan knows this.

I love God The Father, my Lord Jesus Christ and Lord Holy Spirit so much more. I'm not saying my intimate relationship with God is perfect -I still have moments when I feel I don't have the measure of faith needed at certain times. I also know I'm a sinner and I'm wicked just like everyone else but I want to be good like Lord Jesus and bring God glory Amen!! 

So it was during this transformation that I stumbled and thought I was going to collapse!! God healed me Amen. I then got what I self diagnosed as Haglund's disease -and the devil basically came for my feet to stop me from walking!!!

I was in excruciating pain in one foot and then my back started hurting -and God healed me fully Amen. But I then noticed the neighbours always aiming their weapons(lasers) at certain parts of my body and when I'd go out -certain people were looking at that part of my body -and the devil came home to roost. 

I needed deliverance again. Not only did I have to get to grips with the witches trying to kill, steal and destroy my body/health but it felt like the whole neighbourhood was watching and were involved. There was a lot of foreshadowing and what I learnt later is called street theatre. 

The mentally ill were paid to stand near me and talk aloud about parts of their body and serious diseases they had -so I would be afraid I had the same conditions!! It was then Lord Holy Spirit revealed to me -one or two people's intention to try to exchange their destinies with mine (even while I was suffering -can you imagine). The witchcraft is cancelled In Lord Jesus Christ Mighty Name Amen. God delivered me again (and again Amen).  

The holy anger as I grew impatient and weary was palpably. And then by God's grace I started to let-go-and let God again. And I started learning to let God be God Amen --He didn't need my help Amen (laughter). For those who haven't experienced gang-stalking you probably won't be able to relate (thank God Amen) -but for US its so humbling -no?

I can't stop saying it but I've been truly humbled by this temporary place I find myself in Amen!! -But I would choose it again to taste what I'm learning now Amen!! Anyway when I stopped  running and started allowing God to fortify and protect me right here in my home  --I had to really look in the mirror and some of the things I noticed were my super dry, deeply cracked, swollen over-worked-feet!!

I think its easy to forget your feet or any other part of our bodies for that matter when we're dealing with harassment and terrorism in our homes and gang-stalking in the streets. Still, we must remember to try and make room for some selfcare and some selflove -its imperative.

Looking back I think things got so bad because one, I wasn't looking after myself and two, I was sleeping sitting-up propped up in one corner of my home!! My feet didn't get to truly relax until I made a sort of makeshift bed but then I could only sleep by bending my knees and that also started to affect me/my health. 

God is good and I'm now back on my bed and able to stretch out and have now started to tackle my feet and my skin which is also very dry. The chemicals are unforgiving but God Amen!! Right now I don't have the monies I had while working but I've been able to buy a few reasonable bits-and-bobs that you may also find useful.

"How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, “Your God reigns!” Isaiah 52:7 

I start my healing process by putting a towel on the floor then resting my feet before taking one foot at a time to massage them. I them cover my feet in Garnier Body Intensive 7 Days Shea Butter, an Ultra-Replenishing Body Lotion for very dry skin. It's reasonably priced and is the real deal. It's deeply moisturising and soaks into the skin quickly. I massage my foot again and let the cream sink in. I start scrapping the soles of my feet -then scrub the rest. I would normally just massage and scrap/scrub my feet but they were so bad and so dry they needed the extra moisture. I then do the same to the other foot and massage my feet again. 

If you're following -you'll then need to give them a footbath. The foot bath consists of a small amount of a body wash of your choice. I use Original Source's mint and tea tree shower gel. Its 100% natural fragrance, its  vegan, cruelty free and paraben free. Add it to warm water and mix in a descent amount of Epsom salt and stir. 

You'll need to get a second towel ready -and have the foot scrapper and scrubber to hand. Your lotion of your choice and any 'easy melt Raw Shea Butter.' if you can get hold of it. If not -solid raw virgin coconut oil will do. Gently submerge your feet under water and relax for as long as you can. You can just before you remove your feet from the bath -scrub both feet -all over (heel included) and then dry with the extra towel Amen. 

And finally -if your feet are OK (or they hurt) moisturise each foot -taking care to massage the lotion deeply into your them -then seal in the moisture with the raw Shea butter. Take care to melt the butter in your hand by rubbing your hands together and massage it deeply into your feet -they'll thank you later. 

If after the footbath your feet are still like pig's trotters (laughter), massage them again and get scrapping -then scrubbing. Put them back in the water -relax for another 10 -20 mins then dry them and lotion and seal in the moisture as above. 

For your skin -if you're able to bathe -add Epsom salt and bath oil or olive oil which I prefer to the bath water. Relax and enjoy but as you're getting out -mix some shower gel, Himalayan salt and olive oil together and get scrubbing (this can be done a couple of times a week until your skin is used to it). Once you're out of the bath -don't dry yourself fully -but add your lotion of choice (and the 'easy melt Raw Shea Butter' or raw virgin coconut oil) and seal in the moisture. Sit down on your towel while your body drys and relax -you deserve it Amen. 

Remember if you can -do lovingly and deeply massage your skin -especially between your toes, the knees, elbows and your fingers. The scalp is also very important and a head massage is so healing. You can use olive, Shea or coconut oil to massage your scalp. 

Remember your teeth, and your eyes -you may sometimes have to wear sunglasses in the home (if you know, you know -God is in control Amen). Try and use as natural as possible products that are gentle and kind but get the job done. If you're dealing with escalation, meaning chemicals etc -its probably best to use a natural deodorant. I'm using Wild Mint  & Aloe Vera Natural Refillable Deodorant. Its Aluminium free, gentle but effective.  

Perfumes... 

I love and collect niche perfumes but when the escalation started I stopped wearing them. I then got fed-up and started to miss wearing perfume so went looking for a natural option but they mostly contained alcohol and other nasty chemicals -or they were very expensive. Anyway, after looking I found that my old faithful, Clarins' Eau Dynamisante Treatment Fragrance sits so gently on my skin -its become a game changer. Its made with with aromatic essential oils and its lovely and reasonable.